The Chameleon

ambrose: i hate myself..
amroui: i know that..
ambrose: as in really REALLY hate myself..
amroui: don't worry i feel the same way bout u too..
ambrose: u're not helping amroui..
amroui: i'm not supposed to... heh
ambrose: sighz.. i can't stand myself.. can't stand always sitting on the fence.. can't stand having 2 opinions bout everything.. can't stand myself for always saying things i don't mean, or worse, things i DON'T wanna say..
amroui: glad u know u have a fucking big mouth u ass-crack..
ambrose: but why? who am i really? i wanna see the TRUE me..
amroui: LOOK here u Fuck-head.. Look into the mirror.. YOU can't see yourself! and no you're not dead, you're a chameleon!! that's the fucking reason why you're so fucking lonely! coz you've got no mind of your own! remember what Germaine said?!
ambrose: ... ...
amroui: hit a soft spot didn't i? heh..
ambrose: shut the fuck up..

==Back to Mapling==

Ambrose Exposed.

ok. today i'll drop amroui aside. we all need a break from life. today i had a nice one. heart-warming, yet heart-wrenching. quiet day, yet a storm is brewing in my head, in my heart. watched that The Nanny and The Suite Life w Cody n Zack in the afternoon, that silly 7pm chinese drama serial about Jin Shiyi (the Snake Sword thingey and Mangshen Clan).., and Fielder's Choice (Hallmark 9pm). And they all had one thing in common: love. Different perspective, but yet similar idealistic concepts. And it warmed my heart, yet broke it into a thousand pieces at the same time.

in The Nanny, Fran had a WONDERFUL reunion w her gym teacher haha AND Cissy (did i spell it right?) had a touching reunion w her dad. i'm bad at telling stories, but to keep it short, Fran selflessly gave up a chance to watch AND MEET Barbara Streisand IN PERSON to bring about the reunion of father and daughter.. *sweet!* lesson learnt? feelings we hide cut us deeper than if we brought them out in the open. relationships (w parents, siblings, friends) should be as frank as we can be.. well.. easier said than done haha. for all who know me, you know i can be very blunt n tactless at times.. ok.. ALL THE TIME haha, but i just can't hide what i think n feel. hope u guys understand.. i'm a very impatient n short attention person. i can't manipulate n hide my thoughts n stuff =p

The Suite Life was FUN! sibling love n rivalry at its best! but learnt is the lesson to respect other's beliefs. this is best put in the context of religion. As much as i wanna love God, i wanna see ways God reach out to non-believers. God reached out to me when i was young so that helped, but what about my parents or my friends? it's kinda sad that there's always a boundary w Christians n non-Christians.. and i always feel stuck in between.. (since i've not chosen anything for those who think anything otherwise). i see my friends reaching out n spreading the Word, but they get shunned for it. is it that we Christians show a LACK OF RESPECT for other's belief? mayb.. but if we learn a little bit of tact n humility, maybe, just MAYBE, we can reach out to more of our friends in need..

Ah.. THAT CHINESE SERIAL.. i'm bad at chinese so dunno the title HAHA! but it was soooo sweet... Xiaofeng finally got together with Cheif Cao Jin-er (i think that's the name haha) after many persistant attempts to win her heart. the most memorable quote was when he said he loved her truly n deeply, and no matter how hard she pushed him away, he'll always be there for her. UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. how sweet n idealistic those 2 words r.. i wish i cld say i possess such love for others. in many ways, upon reflection, i think i do.. those silly times when i spend time just doin crazy things for others, knowing i'll get nothing back.. knowing i'm insignificant yet trying my best to be something more.. i guess that's love. love for family, love for friends, love for.. .. yah. u get my drift =p a good friend once told me i'm too nice. i think too much for others.. wait.. i think more than 1 person told me that haha.. but i guess there must be some truth in it.. maybe it's coz i'm attention-seeking.. maybe it's coz i'm kind?? maybe it's coz i think too much.. or maybe i have a conscience? maybe that's what amroui really is. more than an alter ego, more than a nemesis, he is my "what if". what if i didn't have a conscience. what if i was bad. what if i really let my anger loose. what if i didn't have a heart..

well.. lastly, i STRONGLY recommend this Hallmark production Fielder's Choice. i don't know if there'll be a re-run or VCDs, but it's a REALLY touching story.. the protaganist (? not sure if this is the way to use this word, but lets call the main lead ie the protaganist man A since i forgot his name) was a workaholic. yah.. worked 5yrs off his life for success in his company. he was in ad designing. finally he had his big break. a chance of a lifetime. a major food chain approached the company to coordinate it's ad campaign. just then his elder sis dropped by, not for the 1st time apparently, to drop of her only son Zac as she'll be out of town. Problem is Zac had a learning disorder, so man A had to entertain Zac while trying to keep up the pace to prepare for the presentation. the story goes that the sis had a car accident and died.. leaving two "strangers": Zac n man A, to start life from that point anew. they had to let go of their past, cherish their present, n move forward into the future. man A had the dilemia of work vs the new responsibility thrown at him: his nephew Zac. so it went that they had a happy ending.. but MAN I WANNA CRY just thinking of the story.. *sob-sob* yah stupid blogs r not meant for story telling.. so i'll just stop short here. point is i've learnt to cherish my ties more after this show. i don't know if anyone out there knows this, but i cherish my friends more than my family ties at times. i feel guilty for that but i just can't help it. it's the way my heart-strings r tugged.. i guess i gotta sort things out. but yah i'll always remember how much i love my sister.. i don't think she'll read this blog, but i know she knows n i'm happy n that's that..

kkz tears r welling up le.. gonna sign off here. today's a touching day. cya ard pple ^^ the slacker's always here for ya all =p

Bowl... Bowl...

ambrose: went to victors today.. bowled 16 games total.. 4 w darryl n leanna, 12 alone..
ambrose: hey jasmon for comin. so fun talking to u. can't believed i bowled 12 games in 3hours.. finished at 3am n took a cab home.. super tired..
ambrose: can't believe this too, but got jio-ed by reuben's p6 bro to go watch zorro.. i feel like an overgrown baby..
ambrose: didn't hand up my take-home exam 4 for MA2108.. no i'm not dead for that. i just feel stupid is all..
ambrose: rushed the report for ST1131.. looks stupid but i'm desperate for ANY marks so i just handed it in anyway.. wonder how i faired for mid-term.. izzet just me or r the results not out yet??
ambrose: i'm consistently bowling a 200+ game then dropping to mediocricy n obscurity for every other games.. i wish i can just maintain a 200 avg.. sux..
ambrose: felt like some martial arts exponent who just lost ALL his kungfu skills.. broke down every single aspect of my bowling today.. my footwork/timing, my release, my follow-through.. all re-learned from scratch.. hope i can get my standard back up asap.. really wanna bowl good for tourney/league.. whichever comes 1st..
ambrose: why m i not sleeping when it's almost 5am?? *looks at clock*
amroui: coz you DON'T fucking KNOW how to say NO.. Now Shut the Fuck up.. i wanna sleep..

-=Comp. switched off.. AGAIN=-

... The Art of Bowling -Revelations- ...

*amroui leans against the wall and stays deep in thought. Stares out at emptiness and contemplates today's performance..*
*ambrose, excited as ever, decides to voice out his thoughts.. ...*

F.Y.I.

Game 1	Game 2	Game 3	Game 4	Total	Avg
124	204	159	145	632	158

ambrose: wah... tired... -,-'"
ambrose: *looks left, looks right* ai? amroui's busy? haha whee! freedom! now i can act as stupid as i want! ^^
amroui: *shouts from the corner* YOU DON'T NEED TO ACT! YOU FUCKING ARE! NOW QUIT THAT FUCKING RAQCHET OR YOU'LL FUCKING GET IT FROM ME! *zones out again*
ambrose: opps.. haha.. newayz today was sooooo FUN! woke up at.. ..2pm! then played MapleStory till.. 6+pm! lol! then went bowling.. wuu wuu!! bowling today was soooooo fun!
ambrose: MUST THANK TONG-GE!! He's best sports psycho EVER!! urr.. i meant psychologist but no diff LOL!! =p yah.. my 204 game's all thanks to him. ^^ he ENLIGHTENED me..
ambrose: speaking of bowling, i've got a new idol.. we all know for singaporeans, the most famous is REMY.. i like WU SIU HONG.. love his score love his style.. but now i wanna emulate.. ... EDWIN SEAH!
amroui: EDWIN FUcking WHO?!
ambrose: Seriously YAH! u know.. mark's friend.. the one who always offers us a lift??
amroui: oh the chauffeur..
ambrose: -,-'" u're evil amroui i swear..
amroui: wateva... *zones out again*
ambrose: anywayz.. edwin is like the epitome of the mental game! he's SUPER consistent, SUPER focused, and most of all, a PERFECTIONIST! i've soooo gotta learn from him.. my game lacks that little bit.. and i can't use "almost" as an excuse any more.. so i've gotta be like him. PERFECT. or at least try to be haha! ohz and Melvyn too! he's God-like.. he's a machine in repeating his shots.. it's amazing just WATCHING him..
ambrose: so nice talking to jason again today. he gave me fresh insights into my game everytime we meet. reminded me of my timing. yah the same thing that coach n edwin noticed.. my laggy downswing and my early slide/last step. sucky.. gotta think about it.. getting VERY comfy w my timing n release now.. a bit TOO comfy.. i shouldn't be so complacent shd i?
ambrose: ohz! and darryl ye's selling his WhiteDot spare ball! 13lb.. shd i buy? seriously considering..
amroui: juz fucking make up your mind will u? stop hesitating like a fucking wuss.. i'd just grab it if i were u..
ambrose: ...
ambrose: sighz.. tmw got soccer training too.. hope i do well.. wanna make 1st team this yr for IFG..
ambrose: and meeting Hongye n Michael too! sooo happy.. army frenz r THE BEST ^^ well.. until they start suaning u..
amroui: they only do that coz u're a fucking loser..
ambrose: ... go back to sleep..
amroui: i wasn't even sleeping loser.. now shut it.. u've talked too fucking long..

-=Comp switched off=-

-=|Who M I Really?|=- -,-'"

someone once told me never to trust these quizzes, but i can't help it! i'm dying to know who i REALLY AM! haha.. did this quiz.. AGAIN. 1st result: avoidant; 2nd result: schizoid. lol! i'll leave it to u to decide who i really m..


avoidant


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schizoid


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kkz.. logging.. using sch comp now =p no idea y i came to sch.. lol! ^^

..NUS Internal Rankings (2)..

My 2nd Internal Rankings yesterday(Sunday, 23/10/2005). This time @ Yishun SAFRA. Didn't perform as well as I expected, but avoided being last.. Again. Barely avoided the dubious honor of being last by 1 position, exactly as i had in the 1st Internal Rankings.
No excuses for my awful performance, but i WAS tired by the time i played my 4th game. Kept zoning in and out of games. By the 5th game, was too weak to even lift my ball, and was seeing stars. It's AMAZING how i survived through the series haha.. Well.. i'm hoping that'll be a valid excuse for my lousy 5th n 6th games. =p
Many thanks though to Jasmon for his constant encouragement and Leanna for hers and that "magic pill". Haha.. saved me from collapsing on the lanes u two *winkz*

My SCORES:

Game 1	Game 2	Game 3	Game 4	Game 5	Game 6	Total	Avg
147	134	169	165	112	139	866	144.3

Luckily, training's been cancelled today. Else I wouldn't know how i'd survive it haha. Hope things'll be better on wednesday. Jason ran out of pple to call up, so i'm down on the teamsheet for league on wed =p for those who wanna see me in action, or just wanna meet up, find me at chevrons at 8pm! =)

ambrose: can't believe it..
amroui: believe what?! ..
ambrose: can't believe i've been playing "Radiata Story" since afternoon.. can't believe we skipped the WHOLE day of school..
amroui: fuck.. don't use WE.. i TOLD you.. don't START.. you fucking idiot won't listen, now would you?!
ambrose: ...
amroui: now we wait for dinner.. DON'T even think about on-ing the PS2 again..
ambrose: i don't know... *grinz*
amroui: ... *smacks!* i dunno what to do with you...

..NTU Trios..

At Tampines Safra today, a motley crew of NUS bowlers came together to take on the mighty giants of NTU in the NTU Trios. My Trio consisted of Jasmon, the "High-Rev Spinner"; Ryan, the "Flick-Stroke Leftie"; and myself ^^
Our Aim: to NOT be LAST.

My SCORES:

Game 1	Game 2	Game 3	Game 4	Game 5	Total	Avg
207	115	91	154	195	762	152.4

Though expected, I was hoping for something better. Hopefully i don't perform as badly tomorrow in the NUS Internal Rankings..
Luckily, I avoided been last in the individual rankings for this tournament. Unfortunately, Jasmon couldn't avoid that fate.. =(
We achieved our aim tho! ^^ We were 2nd LAST haha =p
Shall post updates for tmw's ranking! ^^

ps fyi, melvyn, metta, n andrew came in 1st n andrew had highest game series. melvyn was 2nd behind andrew. dennis from ntu, who was bowling beside us, came in 3rd in games series. A waste as he was the leader till the last game. An exceptional day of brilliant displays of the art of bowling.

..The Truth Hurts.. -=|Words from Eternal Darkness, Amroui|=-

amroui: oi Loser..
ambrose: *looks up sleepily* yar?? ...
amroui: lets talk some facts out yah?
ambrose: *rubs sleepy eyes* o-gay...
amroui: 1) u're a loser, born one, was one, is one, will always be one.. ka-pish??
ambrose: ... ...
amroui: 2) u're too nice, u're too spoilt, u're too fucking weak, and u're too fucking sheltered from this fucked up world.. ie. LOSER.. need i say more??
ambrose: *nods head in boredom.. or mayb is nodding off to dreamland* ...
amroui: 3) u're a wimp.. scared of pain, scarred for life.. i pity your meaningless existence..
ambrose: ...
amroui: yah.. that's bout the summary of your fucked up life..
ambrose: ... .., in case u didn't notice, u've been around since God knows when.. so YOU share the same FUCKING excuse of a LOSER's life WITH ME!! *rolls head back in laughter..*
amroui: u fucking piece of dirtbag scum.. *picks ambrose up by the collar and slams him into the wall* I'm NOTHING like YOU!! *spits at wall beside ambrose's face*
ambrose: oh yah?! remember one of those times when you actually came out? u tried wrestling lincoln lum and ended up getting pinned on the ground, squirming in PAIN?? WHO's the LOSER NOW?!
amroui: *punches ambrose in the stomach* YOU were squirming, NOT I!!?!
ambrose: ooff!! what-ever...
amroui: ... ...*releases grip and walks off, back into the darkness where he came from..*
ambrose: ... ...*looks at amroui with pity, regret, and yet a sense of bonding..*

>>having 2 personas doesn't mean u have a more messed up life.. it just lets you live 2 lifes at once.. life as twins, bonded as one, an abnormal scenario in a perfectly normal setting.. our world.. fucked up..
>>time is linear; u can never move back, nor make it go faster. u're on a point in this 1 dimension, travelling along it. but r we alone? or r there other parallel timelines running alongside ours? we'll never know.. but know this: live w/o regret, for in regret, we'll never realise our present, until it's lost forever, and becomes yet another regret in our lives..
>>to all my friends: i LOVE you guys.. i just hope u feel the same way bout me =)

*ambrose falls asleep, curled up on the floor where he fell; amroui wraps himself in his cloak (ala dracula) n zones out into an endless void of senseless thoughts.. an eternal chaos.. the Lord of Darkness and Destruction reigns in his own realm..*

...Blogging Holiday! ...

Turning over to die
Laying myself to cry
Alone in my room
I weep to slumber
Pain I've never felt
Washing over pulsatingly
Killing me softly
The wound in my heart

ambrose: ...
amroui: *throws the chair across the room* *slams a fist into the wall*
ambrose: ...
amroui: *kicks the cupboard* *<<== is on a rage feeding frenzy*
ambrose: ...izzet enough? r u full yet? coz i've got loads more anger from where it came from..
amroui: gimme... MORE.. haha
ambrose: ... anytime...
amroui: *yells incoherently as he slams a kick into the door before a lightning barrage of punches*
ambrose: soooo... pain... i'm gonna take a blogging holiday.. too mentally unstable atm to do anything.. can't study.. can't sleep..
amroui: at least u can still bowl n play soccer. we NEED to do those..
ambrose: ...*drifts off into endless thoughts.. deep dreamy eyes staring into emptiness*
amroui: ...well... if u see ambrose, don't piss him off. coz i'll be coming out.. muaHAHA! evil rules..

..Dead..Tired..

ambrose:...
amroui: idiot's feeling really sleepy atm.. so if any of u fuckheads saw me in sch for the past 2 days, too fucking bad muaHAHA...
ambrose: i'm ambrose, not IDIOT...
amroui: okok.. hi THE idiot.. HAHA.. Loser..
ambrose:...
amroui: sheesh.. it ain't fun when u're DEAD.. lucky i didn't kill you last month.. i so nearly kicked yur sorry ass to Hades.. man wassup w YOU?!
ambrose: i dunno.. distracted.. can't think.. can't study.. sleep...
amroui: fucking hell can you wake up?! u've had enough sleep haven't YOU?!
ambrose: *looks at amroui* ...
amroui: *curses under breath*
ambrose: i dunno amroui.. i feel hurt.. i feel pain.. i feel like crying.. i feel like dying.. i hate being lonely.. i know we're not, but yet no matter how much fun i have, the world still seems a dull gray.. n soooo lonely... *sobz..*
amroui: fuck.. i hate it when u cry... kkz.. shuddup already.. if u're not gonna sleep, then i m. i wanna train soccer later in the evening. WE got recalled into IFG soccer team REMEMBER?? .. I'm not gonna let YOU make a fool of us again.. can't wait to see that arrogant SOB mark playing for arts muaHAHA! i'm sooo gonna break his legs... *evil grinz*
ambrose: u're joking right?? ...*closes eyes n looks away*
amroui: heh heh.. shhh... that'll be our dirty little secret...

p.s to mark: j/king bout everything EXCEPT to kick your ass in soccer when we face off in IFG haha =p enjoy your sunburn! u look like aaron haha =p pinky pink! ^^

October Babies!!! n many more...

to WeiJun, Max, Keith, AND mcyk: I LOVED watching GOAL!! hehe was soooo fun! sorry max but i'll return u the $10 asap! ^^ n WJ, thanks for keeping me company on sunday! =) myck... ... i'm meeting neale on thursday too, so cya then!
to Michael: added link to HTML guide. use it when c8ing webbie. quite useful to me.
to Leanna: aww.. u missed the BELGIAN CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM CAKE!!! haha.. i hope i spelt correctly tho haha..
to NUS Bowling Team: THANKS for giving me a FUN b-day celebration! and once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL OCTOBER BABIES!!
to Mark and Edwin: HA! i'm making special reference to YOU TWO! so don't think u can run away! thanks for supper and the ride.. urr... further away from home! lol! =p fun fun.. muz go to Savage Garden2's concert as soon as exams r over haha =p *raises eyebrows, winkz*
to Dashun n other Army frenz who noe Michael aka baba: haha! baba joining DARK SIDE le! he gonna start playing MS! haha! DS buddy, we MUST help him power level haha! btw, howz my Kumbis? or u buy Steelys le? lol! =p
to amroui: urm.. don't hit me? ..

amroui: *SmAcKz!*
ambrose: ouch... it's my b-day celebration...
amroui: 1) b-day's OVER 2) it's MY b-day too iDi0T..
ambrose: ohz.. right.. sighz.. tired.. bowling sux today.. went back to 5-step.. can't handle timing.. quoting Edwin: "Feels... Weird.."
amroui: coz u're stupid.. *slap*
ambrose: OW! oi.. if u're sooo good, y dun YOU try??
amroui: i DID.. remember the doubles?? u fool..
ambrose: well.. but I got the TURKEY..
ambroui: ritez.. luck.. *pui*
ambrose:... but uncle ronnie is right.. 5-step, push out on 2nd step, keep wrist locked, fingers behind ball, palm under ball, push n follow through, at the same time must turn ball.. ohz n me changing index finger position back to old style: open wide.. slowly getting there..
amroui: but can get it right in time for this sat anot?? bloody technique keep changing.. even if u ask me to bowl in your place, our loco-memory will be Sooooo confused I can't do a shyt..
ambrose: well, lets hope so... wah... so many project deadlines...
amroui: fuck dun remind me.. stupid idiot.. u're always procrastinating.. well.. focus.. we MUST do well on SUNDAY.. i wan to bowl for IVP..
ambrose: so bowling's more important than studies lah!?!
amroui: Yessshh... *evil grinz.. eyes sparkle w evil glee*

yah.. that's how much i love bowling.. i love 2 things above all else in life: bowling n eating.
well.. almost.. i love soccer n man utd too.. n my sis ^^ will tell more as soon as i can find time.. quoting amroui: FUCK...

Bored of Work.. Time to Play..

Spot the Xtra.. Can you c me??

This Photo was aptly coined as Leanna and the OTHERS.. lol.. makes you feel soooo needed har? lol j/king.. But all in all, thanks leanna for the invite, AND persuading darryl to come along too ^^ Nice meeting ALL OF YOU there! cya ard in sch ernest n janice! ^^

amroui: oi.. u not tired har..
ambrose: ... tired...
amroui: go sleep lor...
ambrose: i wanna.. but can't..
amroui: i'll handle this fucked up project.. go sleep u idiot.. u were jumping ard the whole day.. @ the party n in church.. go sleep..
ambrose: hmm.. do i sense a little nicety in you after goin to church amroui? ^^
amroui: *round-house kicks ambrose; ambrose went airborne* NOT A CHANCE..
ambrose: Oooofff!! ok.. i get the point.. but amroui.. r u.. Christian?
amroui: do I look like one?? ...
ambrose: urm.. nope.. but i wish u were.. like what i'd like to be..
amroui: why follow what you can't see?
ambrose: I wish i knew y.. it's just a calling.. something you can't see, can't feel, can't hear, smell nor touch. it's just there.. always.. everywhere and yet nowhere. tugging at your heart.. the Power of God.. Omnipresent.. well.. so i'm told n so i feel..
amroui: well.. not my business.. YOUR problem.. But for all that load of crapshit your just spewed, you're STILL not christian!! haha.. you suck.. really you do...
ambrose: you know, for once i gotta agree with you amroui..
amroui: really? yeah... ...
ambrose n amroui stares out into the night sky...

..the Life of A Pig..

Eat.. Sleep.. Stone.. Eat.. Sleep.. Stone..
Yah.. the inevitable cycle of life..

ambrose: *yawn*..
amroui: *SmAcK!* ...
ambrose: *didn't feel a thing.. went back to sleep*
amroui: the only thing we're alike about is our sleep patterns.. we both sleep like pigs.. sighz.. since stupid idiot's sleeping, come lemme tell u our story..
...amroui: ambrose always had mood swings, but he used to be soooo lonely.. no companion n stuff.. that sad fuck kept feeling depressed n angry for no fucking reason at all.. so it was such that 18yrs of that sad existence passed before i came. yup.. i'm not the permanent host, though it seems i've been here forever. haha! thank God i've only been here awhile.. a lifetime in this LOSER's body would have driven me crazy!!
...amroui: so it was that ambrose ran into a problem he couldn't solve; not the 1st time I would say, but the 1st of its kind. That sorry fuck actually got a girlfriend.. pity that bitch.. having to survive ambrose HAHA.. well.. yah he got confused.. w love, w frenz, w fam, w ARMY... stupid bugger cared so much bout any org he's in.. he cares too much about ANYTHING.. well.. he got angry over something he forgot.. for in that anger, i guess pretty much that was when I arrived.

In Anger, In Hate

In Storms of Fire

I arrive to end thy darkness.

Burning Flames of Eternal Fury

Feel My WRaTh..

the pure ecstasy of anger

amroui: Lord of Destruction...

...to be continued??

ambrose: FUN DAY! ..amroui: lemme sleep bastard..

ambrose: whee! today was soooo fun!!
amroui: *turns over in mid-slumber n smacks ambrose's head* shut the fuck up i wanna sleep...
ambrose: wait lah.. pretty-pretty-puh-leeeaaasssseeeee!! me wanna tell the whole world bout today!!! ^^
amroui: ... *mumbles some stuff u DON'T wanna hear..*
ambrose: *ahem* today was a bright n sunny day... ...
amroui: *SmAcK!* Get to THE POINT you Bone-Head....
ambrose: fine fine... *rubs head* today had silly MA1100 test.. think fail le lah haha!! left whole last page blank haha! -7 marks le out of 30... =p then had fun stoning @ taka w bryan after test! bryan is like the best-est fren to juz bitch w lah! haha..
amroui: u call everyone your best-est... u brainless twerp... ahhh.. QUICK get ON w your fucking "report" already miss-"i wanna dress up like a geisha"...
ambrose: HEY! how did YOU know?! haha...
amroui: ... ...i HATE sharing this stupid body with u... I HATE you...
ambrose: *sob* ... ...
amroui: FUCKING HELL WAKE UP YOUR IDEA! if not i'll drag your FUCKING ass to sleep...
ambrose: okok... *sniffle* well.. leanna says she did ok w her test so that's that.. n.. too BAD she missed the surprise!! haha.. well.. if ya wanna know what it was, WAIT FOR MONDAY!! ^^ hehe... yah.. oh oh! n i ran today!! 5km +-! @ fort canning w my army frenz! sooo nice! they got out-camp run today! miss them all haha!! *gush..*
amroui: you made a FOOL of yourself lah... idiot.. only thing good that came out of it was the RUN itself.. idiot..
ambrose: hey... we met up w lots of old frenz kz?! alai.. weiyang.. cpt tan.. cpt tong.. RSM Poh.. lta ong.. msg Leong.. Jon.. Nathan.. Xiang.. CHILI... hehe..
ohz! then played pool with WEI JUN!! sooo fun!! kena owned.. lol! lost 2-1 =p haha....
amroui: *SmAcKz!!* IDIOT.. we wouldn't have lost if you had REALLY played.. EMBARASSING...
ambrose: let friend win lah!!! amroui.. you're a jerk sometimes...
amroui: nope.. ALL THE TIME.. and u're a brainless twerp...
ambrose: *does a Clover impersonation* What- Ever... Newayz back to story...
amroui: *mumbles under breath* sometimes i wonder if u're gay...
ambrose: *ahem* so as i saying.. met up with KEITH!!! MAX!!!! mark... -,-'" n JUN! =) we watched GOAL! suuuupppppeeeeerrrrrr cool show lah! Santiago Munez was like soooo cool!! n they Won LIVERPOOl!! haha suckit.. =p mark was late... as usual... haha... n he said he wasn't goin tmw... =(
amroui: fuck it lah.. cannot go then dun go lor.. muz cry de meh.. idiot...
ambrose: *sob*...
amroui: kkz.. ENOUGH.. u're wasting enough time...

-=Comp Switched Off=-

amroui: Fuck I'm Still not Sleeping

From the darkness I emerge

To the shadows I return

The Light beckons Me On

But I shun the Light

For in Darkness I seek

In loneliness I comfort

amroui: fucking stupid website.. hate blogspot.. so irritating.. wasting my time..
ambrose: hey.. it's FUN! we always wanted to do this right?
amroui: no.. YOU wanted to u act cute attention seeking mother-fucker..
ambrose: ... *sniff*
amroui: oh fuck.. the cry-baby cries again.. tmd.. i'm surrounded by idiots.. leave me alone..
ambrose: haiz.. pity geocities site went down..
amroui: *interrupts* FUCK that GEOCITIES! i just upload a few files n they say i fucking exceed their fucking limit! where the fuck is the fucking logic anymore?! I'm NOT paying to get my fucking thoughts onto stupid virtual land for no lifers to read n laugh at me.. i'm not ambrose.. fuck sometimes i wish u'd just roll over n play dead u fucking piece of shit.. *kicks ambrose a few times*
ambrose: *lying on floor rolls over in pain* oww... not fun.. i'll tell mum..
amroui: oh.. right.. about what? stupid.. if only u had brains.. fuck u n fuck the world.. *thinks for a while* fuck.. we got work to do.. n no it's not FUCKING MAPLESTORY u no-life geek..
ambrose: *moans n refuses to get up; stares up at sky n makes butterfly shapes*
amroui: OI! u fucking dreamer.. if u'd stop playing ard every fucking waking second of your existence, we might actually be better at studies, better at pool, better at bowling, better at ANYTHING than we r now u fucking lazy bum shithead..
ambrose: i wanna bowl...
amroui: yah.. n i wanna top the next internal rankings.. so shut the fuck up. get your act together we got a run tmw..
ambrose: we do?? oh.. whee! ziping n valentino n ken n weijun! ritez! we crashing their outcamp run arn't we?! haha! wheE! fun fun!!
amroui: ... *smacks head w palm* idiot.. yah we're goin there to RUN.. stop thinking bout acting cute u idiot.. we're gonna NETWORK n make sure we look good, so i'm counting on your silly ass to make a GOOD impression. i sux at goody goody stuff.. *pui* but I'M RUNNING.. u can't run for nuts u weakling..
ambrose: WHAT?? we got GOLD for IPPT didn't we??
amroui: no.. I DID. you only run the 10km runs n give up after the 1st 3km coz i went to sleep u IDIOT..
ambrose: right... i think i remember now.. BUNNY HOPPING!! haha...
amroui: *slaps* u make me sick.. u make me so wanna fucking puke.. can u ACT like a HUMAN for once! *turns around n rolls up in a corner* sleeping.. u wake me n u'll DIE... AGAIN...
ambrose: ... ...

Introduction

ambrose: School sucks...
amroui: ...
ambrose: y arn't u saying anything??
amroui: ...
ambrose: i wanna cry...
amroui: wuss...
ambrose: what??!!! hey.. i've had enough w u..
amroui: right..
ambrose: what's your prob?
amroui: u're too act cute..
ambrose: hehe ^^ like me? =p *bounce bounce*
amroui: *kicks ambrose away* not funny.. u make me puke. i don't know what's wrong w u.. always acting cute, being happy n all.. cheerful, when u know u're just A.A... u SUCK. Lend me your anger. let me feed off u..
ambrose: *cries* that hurts.. i like being happy! i like helping pple! i like caring for others! i.. ..
amroui: *interrupts* enuff w your whining.. stinks to the core. u LIE. u care TOO much. bloody fuck u jack ass.. u care more for your friends than their fucking mother! *backhand slaps ambrose across the room* u don't deserve to be a man u bloody snag.. gay shit *pui*
ambrose: *cries* i'm... not... gay...
amroui: HAHA... sad fuck.. glad ya not.. coz i'm not sharing this stupid weakling excuse of a body with one.. fuck u stop grabbing my leg u bloody puss.. *kicks ambrose away*
ambrose: ... ... *cries to sleep*