the Buay Tahan post

yah.. can't stand it..
read Jonathan's posts n just wanna cry w him.
y got friends hurting so much n we can't do anything but watch?
y do i always have to be the one at the side while everyone else seems to be able to help?
y r the bad guys better liked than the "good guys"?
y m i stuck in between in no-man's land? neither good nor bad??
i hate feeling helpless, not being able to do anything for anyone..
yah n i dun really care about myself so to pple who keep caring for me, thx.. i need them n yet i dun.. haha..
yes Jon songs ALWAYS pull the heart strings.. if there're no songs, movies n games n all things in life won't carry the same meaning.. silence is horribly deafening..
if only we were emotionless sods.. maybe we'd be able to move on better..
well i dunno if i have.. maybe i gotta try finding that out like u did.. ha..
lynn... read your post.. bout the lonely city hall shopping n all.. n scarily.. i find myself in that kind of situation ALL THE TIME.. makes me feel so lonely.. n yet.. strangely, there's sort of a comfort in it.. apparently i've grown so accustomed to loneliness, i might juz shun company..
maybe that's y i prefer goin out w frenz 1-1 only.. can't do group..
but i always find myself a passenger in group outings.. i think i have a vouyeur mentality.. i like looking at things from the outside.. i like seeing life pass me by.. i like seeing my frenz having fun.. it's ok if i'm not the one c8ing the fun, as long as i'm there to see it..
coz i noe i'm a HORRIBLY boring person to talk to.. i'm VERY narrow-minded, horribly un-opinioted, n if i do have a pt of view, it's usually unfounded ie no proof or justification.. n i noe that u guys r laughing inside everytime i stammer.. yah i can't speak coherently.. n i hate myself for being too loud.. i wanna hear, yet i wanna speak.. n it's sooo bloody confusing it's irritating..
doh.. Jon speaks wise words.. there're 2 choices: one the right one, one the easy one. usually we take the latter but that's usually wrong too..
sighz.. guess i gotta stop running away.. guess i gotta start studying.. fuck.. i've thrown away another semester.. hope i can graduate.. elaine jie.. missing u really.. no one in sch to pei wo le.. sufei jie oso.. go mexico never tell me..
*cries* so lonely.. haiz.. n broke.. no money for bowling..
damn..
i think.. i think.. i'll be alone again. hermit..
urm.. happy birthday to all the pple i may forget saying well-wishes to: Casey, Zhimin, Baey, Elaine, Joline, Rachel, Teng Whye... can't remember anymore atm.. well.. December's gonna be lonely.. haha..
zzz.. wtf have i been saying.. nvm.. i'll blog this incoherent piece of shit..
i'm a bum.. a slacker, a stoner, a lifeless heap.. n no one but myself can save me.
... ...

MS Down.. *cries*

amroui: OI! ambrose! u're goin back to your OLD SELF! You Need another "wake-up" call?!
ambrose: *engrossed in MapleStory* huh? ...
amroui: fucking hell.. holed up at home the WHOLE fucking DAY gaming! not Studying, not DOING something constructive, just fucking rotting your life away!?!
ambrose: ...yah? ...
amroui: *grabs ambrose by the scruff of his shirt n shakes violently* LOOK at yourself you fucker!! u look like a piece of trash! hunched over yur comp totally oblivious to the world.. YOU KNOW YOU EXIST IN FUCKING REALITY DON'T YOU?!
ambrose: ...
*just then, a server anouncement pops up: "Dear Maplers, there will be a Major Network Expansion. Please log off safely before 0000hr, 28th Nov to prevent rollbacks. Thank you."*
amroui: haha.. u fucking deserve that.. now back to D2! muahaha! let my EVIL flow.. no more fucking act-cute games.. muahaha..
ambrose: *stares blankly* -blink.blink- O.o AHHHHHH!! NOOOOOOOOOooooo!!
suddenly the world feels like it's crashing down..
*a Beam of Light shines down from above.. Mr Bean?? no. it's a sign.. "DO WELL for your last paper. DON'T screw this up like ST2131.. n after yur torment n torture, I'll REWARD you with a larger server capacity so you'll NEVER have trouble logging into Aquila.." Light vanishes..*
amroui: wtf...
ambrose: O.o that was FrEaKy.. haha..
amroui: ..

-=|Aquila: amroui(27rogue), xXSonGokuXx(24rogue), SonGokuZ(17magician), BlackKnight(24swordman), ElfRanger(22archer), xXPrismXx(8Beginner)|=-
-=|Bootes: ZephrWing(48ice/lightning wizard), AmR0uI(27rogue), xXAlterEgoXx(20swordman), Sheego(15rogue/female)|=-

O.o 10 chars.. never noticed.. haha.. n yah all male except sheego =p

i'm getting lazy in all i do..

bowled in 9pin tap on sunday.. damn pissed w results..
was 7th coming into the 5th game. but we had to change lanes after 1st 4 games. lanes for 5th to 8th game were SUPER DRY.. damn pissed.. couldn't adapt to an inside line, couldn't do well, dropped from 7th to 34th.. could have at least gotten something i felt..
note to self: must train my inside line.
good news is, my outside line is VERY consistent, as seen in my 1st 4 games results n previous league outing =p i'm getting good at making minor adjustments to my 12-10 line =p hope tampines safra will be oily ^^ me wan my ball to SKID!!
p.s i have to boast, for my 4th game, the 261, it was a clean game + i only had 2 8/ + for the rest which r strikes, i only had 3-4 9pin strikes =p urm.. i think i din get a strike for the last throw since score is 261 else my math's failing me.. =p

Game 1	Game 2	Game 3	Game 4	Game 5	Game 6	Game 7	Game 8	Total	Avg
154	246	231	261	159	178	117	149	1495	186.875

newayz bout life, i love u guys, i love my blog, i love telling u guys bout my life, but i've been getting VERY lazy.. haha.. too lazy to go out, too lazy to study, too lazy to blog, too lazy to.. ..well.. yah u get my drift =p but i feel obliged to post now.. it's been awhile LOL =p amroui been's very quiet recently, so all's well i guess.. must be Albert n his BFGs(from Quake fame ^^) haha! he told me to summon him like a GF/Aeon to wipe out amroui.. ouch that must have hurt.. =p
sighz.. it's tuesday, i have st2131 paper today.. dun think i'll be sleeping.. coz i haven't started studying for this paper YET!!! haha.. can't believe i no ZiLcH bout this module.. n worst is i'm not panicking!! haha... i'm either too slack, too lazy, too bochup, or just given up totally on the idea of passing this heh.. but i guess i gotta try.. =)
woot! btw, to all acjc-ians out there, especially the bowlers: CHONG HAN'S BACK IN SG!! haha! bowled w him in the 9pin tap! soooo happy!! ^^ my bro is back from down under! w 3 torn knee ligaments! ROFL!! those who know him GOTTA hear his story haha!! =p
kkz.. shall TRY to study.. AHHH!! i thought i see amroui's silleuotte in the shadows!! SAVE ME!! i'll pia i PROMISE!! ^^ *cross fingers*

amroui: idiot.. ambrose, the guy who is n yet never was..
*thanks darryl n chong han.. i'm enlightened*

the Return *Ouch my body still hurts*

Great game today. Though i should have won my opponent.. including handicap, i lost by FIVE pinfalls.. yup.. 5.. sux.. haha..

Game 1	Game 2	Game 3	Game 4	Total	Avg
184	151	202	176	713	178.25

but considering i haven't bowled in about 3wks.. izzet 3? or 2? haha.. yah it ain't so bad.. i guess the rest helped ^^
damn my body still aches.. arm hurts.. strained my left shoulder/neck from playing pool *yah u heard me right*, my right knee probably from soccer.. still hurts like hell.. my arm feels weak still.. n yah the usual aches n pains of the body n chest..
but i'm PES A!?! doh.. i wonder if i'm really in pain or it's just my mind playing tricks w me haha..
kkz i'm supposed to be studying BUT.. back to mapling hehe ^^
adios amigos! =p

GunGrave

ambrose: i'm becoming a brainless heap haha..
amroui: yah u fucking are.. wasting your time away in front of the fucking monitor..
ambrose: but GunGrave's SoOoOo COOL!!
amroui: yah n exams r 9 days away.. tick..tock..
ambrose: yah yah.. but.. Brandon Heat is SoOoOo COOL! and the whole show! it's a dream come true! finally got to watch it! but darn.. a slow connection for Ep.13 stopped me.. =p HaHaHA...
amroui: ...
ambrose: u guys have SOOOOoooooo gotta watch this! haha! hmm.. shall i play MS now? hmm..
amroui: u fucking ass.. i cld just strangle u right here right now.. u're gonna get US killed..
ambrose: ... fun FuN FUN! can't get enough of it!!

-=GunGrave is SeRiOuSlY aWeSoMe!=-

Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children

Woot.. Today is another productive day in the life of Ambrose. Productive in terms of nourishing my life's entertainment, enjoyment, and all things good n nice. TOTALLY UNPRODUCTIVE in terms of studies.. but what the heck HAHA!
Finally downloaded and watched FF7: AC today. N it was SoOoOoOo COOL! Cloud looked FANTASTIC! loved his blade! kadaj looked cool too! AND SEPHIROTH! whoa... haha! + i bet many pple DROOLED over Tifa HAHA.. they REALLY made her look good =p
it was so FUN seeing everyone frm the game brought to life! well.. even tho i haven't completed the game ROFL!
if SquareEnix REALLY releases a remake of FF7, i've SOOOOOO gotta get myself a copy along w PS3 HAHA! screw X-box n Microsoft! u can't beat PS n the SquareEnix Franchise! MuaHaHaHA!

==>> LOVE THE GAME(s)! ;>

Man Utd 1 - 0 Chelsea

Need i say more?
Man Utd WON! haha.. Fletcher's 31st min goal settled it. A BEAUTY of a lobbing header.
All started w that MAGNIFICIENT feint by Rooney, stunning the Chelsea midfield. with them clustered in the middle, he released the left flank, n a cross (either scholes or ronaldo) to the far post was met by an unmarked(sorta) Fletcher. Only chance against onrushing Cech was a lob, n lob he did. Over Cech, towards the far post, over terry's head, n snuggled into the bottom left corner of the goal..
GooooaaaaaLLLL!!! haha! screamed so loud my mum woke up ROFL!
This.. is.. Ecstasy.. Heaven.. Now somebody get me to study PLEASE! haha.. =p

==Man Utd Fan Always==

Bowling with Family

Haha.. yesterday had an impromtu bowling session w my dad n uncles. Why impromtu? coz me n me dad only knew bout it at 10pm, then we rushed down to hougang superbowl by 11pm for it haha =p by then my uncles n their frenz were bowling already.

i swear, my Uncle Mike can take on any bowler in singapore. he's a super consistent metal-techer stroke bowler. forward roll w a little side rev n WHaM!
then there's Uncle Peter who's the epitome of Ah Pek hook bowlers. if u've seen league bowlers b4, u can just imagine how my Uncle bowls =p then there's their bowling kaki Uncle Andy. he bowls the way Darryl Kuek just dreams he cld play. n no it's not the dream blue ball w big hook that snaps in at the back end. haha he bowls a str ball w a little hook, but coz the ball speed is SoOoOo fast, it skids str to pocket, then WHaM! everything gets blown back! howz that for a str ball haha..
then there's Uncle Allan.. amazing.. he bowls an outside line w pure forward roll, but the ball grips the lane so much he can hook past the 1-2 pocket! yeouch.. reminds me of myself when trying to adjust my hook at victors lol ^^
my dad. hehe shh.. dun say. ask Metta how my dad bowls =p my dad won her recently in Friday night league haha.. bad day for her bah.. she must be having nightmares over it ROFL! =p

kkz.. as usual i'll post up my scores.. was tired by 4th game but dad said "last game bah son.." n we ended up playing SIX games.. hmmm.. 4+1=6?? heh.. sighz.. but it was fun hehe

As usual, my scores:

Game 1	Game 2	Game 3	Game 4	Game 5	Game 6>	Total	Avg
159	173	143	110	127	120	832	138.67

kkz gotta rush off to work. late le lol! =p (as usual right?)