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Jay Chou-Drifting - Jay Chou

If only I could drift my car as well as I drift through life . . .
Ah well. I'm a safe driver. I SWEARZZzzz.
. . .NOT!

I feel tired. I lack direction, energy, motivation in life. I hope that will change.
And yet, I hope it won't. Life feels so serene now.

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Today was damn fun. First time live fishing ie. not in fishing pond. I caught... ONE SUPER SMALL ?boxfish? (looks like a puffer fish, but squarish haha) super energetic lor tt fish haha. but so small! gimme false hope only haha. Was with Yi Tong. My "boss" haha =p

Sigh.. the ITE short course I wanted to apply for maxed out le. Have to wait for next window... IN JULY!?! zzz.. I refuse to wait 3 months for it. I'm gonna find alternatives.

Met Zhimin today while out with friends playing billiard haha. So coincidence.
Today met alot of ppl wor. In NUS I saw (but didn't say hi) to Faith from my PS module proj last time, and my CG mates Ray and Kelvin. I think I saw Diana too.. ahhh but wat the heck eh? Barely acquaintance newayz bah..

Today also commemorates the longest blogpost I've done in.. MONTHS! hurray! XP

I'm also considering starting up another blog site to blog about the animes I've watched :)

Speaking of blogs, Pauline from my Stats class has started a blog-shop!
Do feel free to check it out! http://meek-concept.blogspot.com

KK. that's all for now. Good Morning/Nitez! :)

Ranting, a verbalised form of barking

My commitments to studies.
To friendships.
To family.
To work.
To play.
Every promise I make is a chain I shackle upon myself.
24/7 hotline indeed...

ok so i exaggerate. but it's in part true.
i've discovered a little bit more about myself today. i don't really prioritise friends above myself. it's just the promises i make that i prioritise. especially promises to others.
i'm seriously having one of my mood swings again. not the angry type, but the "don't feel like doing anything wasting life away" bummer kinda mood swing.
but i've arranged for some events so i had to get them done. put on happy face. socialise. when i rather just bum and stone. wasting myself away.. alone.. somewhere..

it's not that i don't enjoy the company of others.. it's just that sometimes i get into this kinda moods, and i can't seem to figure out why. n i can't drop and run from reality either. so yeah, i'm stuck.
why the need to socialise anyway? you know what the sad thing is? if i stopped socialising with ppl, ppl will forget me. i doubt i'll be friends with so many if i clammed myself shut. i want friends, and yet i'm not willing to put in the effort in maintaining that friendship. i'm selfish i know. selfish, and lazy -,-'"

i just wanna sleep through this part of my life. i know life is supposed to be meaningful, but right now that's quite hard to see. i need to get away. once i'm done with exams, n post-exam celebrations (a social event), i'll find a way. just stone at home, or rot in a lan shop somewhere, or something along those lines.

i need to hibernate...

it's that time of the year...

it's that time of the year!
yup folks, it's time for me to beat the race against the clock! to pass my IPPT b4 my birthday; to hopefully get a gold; to run faster for 2.4km.
today's results:
Sit-up. 40. 5pts.
S.B.J. 243cm. 5pts.
Chin Up. 8. 3pts.
4x10m. 9.9s. 5pts.
2.4km. Fallout.
heh. yeah i fell out after the 5th lap. was walking for most of the 5th lap, n probably half of 4th lap too! can't seem to keep the pace after the 1km mark.. i need training. i wanna blame it on the numbness i felt in my arms after doin pull ups (just before the 2.4km run) but i think i only have my lack of fitness to blame ultimately. could feel stitches creeping in barely after finishing the 1st lap.. (fyi, did my IPPT at Khatib, so 2.4km was conducted on a running track. it's been ages since i ran on one.)

mood swings? oh right. mood swings. nothing much. just constantly tired, with bursts of hyper-activity. usually cheerful, mostly irritable, sometimes moody, occasionally angry, and rarely down (gloomy).
i do feel like being alone though. but i don't wanna at the same time. so many things to do. no one to do them with, no time to do them, no will to do them. i feel on a different wavelength from everyone. weird. heh.

i hate crowds. mayb it's coz of the physical constraint. mayb it's coz i'm mildly claustrophobic. maybe it's coz i hate the stench. maybe it's coz i tend to initiate hyperventilate1.01 whenever my personal space is being constricted.
or maybe i'm juz a very proud egoistical person. (huh? what does pride got to do with this?) well, i dislike the insignificance of being in a crowd. alone, in wide open spaces, the focus is inward; the focus is me. despite my self-hate, i'm probably quite a narcist. that explains my super ego at things that i do relatively well at (with respect to my other skills or other people). i'm a disgusting character, so you should all go away. yeah. stay away =p haha. :)

newayz after IPPT, stoned on uber long train ride home. i took a long detour n juz stoned.. listening to my mp3s.. drifting away. i think that sums up my life. a drifter. bum. stoner. well, not as well as ben does it. he's the pro of stoning ha. i like to share too much =,='" i'm home now, n i shd b getting some work done. that's all for now. tata.

==EnD==

The two things that you should never waste time on.
1) Feeling sorry for yourself. It gets you nowhere.
2) Unreciprocated grudge. Worse than unreciprocated love, this is an emotion that'll eat you up from inside. Hate and anger is the worst possible combination, and in this you find both. It's pointless because most of the time, there's no logical explanation for such a feeling, and you'll rarely find a rational excuse to continue bearing that grudge. (The target of your grudge will go "huh? he hates me?". Chew on that)

Love
Ambrose
Self-declared Guru in need of help