Update v1.931 w BonusPack v1.661
Like a break-up, you could say my departure from Sanctuary hurts. Lots.
It's amazing how much weightage i put into the friendships I've formed in the past few months in-game. It's a shocking wake-up call to me. I should play less WoW wahaha >.<
Easier said than done though. I should, however, take another look at my system of friendship. I give every friend, old or new, my 100%, and sometimes, it drains me out.
Worse still, I start getting impatient with old/familiar friends, and end up chasing some away. Most new acquaintances don't see it, but I have a very bad temper, and unfortunately, I seem to be having more trouble keeping it under the lid.
I guess as I hit "adulthood", I care less for face, and "just give". My devil-may-cry heck care attitude that I've adopted may be doing me more harm than good though.. but being a good guy just don't cut it anymore. I remember being told "you can't please everyone" and how wise were those words.
Newayz, this is an update post, so here goes.
WoW update 1: Silentstalkr has formed Halfway House. A casual guild to help one another, gear up n train potential raiders, n help them look for a raiding guild/home. Or they could stay and be a casual, and enjoy the camaradrie shared among fellow members of Halfway House. To all Sanctuary members, I'm sorry I'm not coming back, at least not in the near future, cause of the following reasons.
1) my return will harm the guild more than help.
2) I've promised the officers I won't come back.
3) Hardcore raiding was never my intent in this game.
WoW update 2: Borntokill on Aman'thul has joined CK in his family guild Band of Brothers. I intend to play occasionally with them, and have found their pace of levelling and gaming to be relaxing and fun. Borntokill shall be a dagger rogue, and I shall relish the chance to play a rogue again.. from a whole new perspective. (i've never played dagger end-game. been sword since pre-20s)
On that note, Madame is still GM of Reunion, but Reunion is currently rather defunct. I'll log on at least once a week, but I doubt I'll be lvling Madame much. I'm glad to see notably Deadstalk, Etrigan, Kylnn, and Luella's Alt showing some activity. However, I suspect only Etrigan and Deadstalk are really playing haha.
WoW update 3: An offer too good to refuse has knocked on my door. Been bugged by mark to reroll a rogue back on Shadowsong and raid with him on Shadowsong. Aside from being kicked out of Sanctuary, yesterday saddening news of a split of the cores of SoG has sent shockwaves round the raiding community of Shadowsong. This only further pushed my decision to reroll a NE rogue on Shadowsong. Vvred is now a lvl7 rogue on Shadowsong. Feel free to find me there. I should be there almost as often as I am on Silentstalkr.
WoW update 4: My characters on Khaz'goroth have now officially entered semi-retirement. I've not given up on them, but I don't intend to pursue further "glory" with them. My sole intent of logging onto Khaz will be to renew old ties. Nothing more. With more WoW frenz turning RL frenz, the lines between virtual and reality are thinning. And with many of the "converted-RL frenz" retiring/semi-retiring from WoW, it's time Silentstalkr hung up his blades too.
Bowling is expensive, but still enjoyable. However, the joy I derive from the pursuit of perfection in bowling seems to have lost its appeal as compared with that I get from 9ball pool. Though I doubt I'll quit bowling, I might quit the NUS bowling team. Permanently. It's been fun, but it's not something I'd like to hang around for.
I hope to save up enough gold... I mean.. money, to purchase a break cue. Using darryl's break cue strengthened my resolve to get one. I intend to master my break for 9ball, and getting myself a break cue will be my 1st step. Already I pride myself in being able to deliver a relatively good break.... On tables of better quality than those found at Kpool heh.
School sucks. But whining that I'm doing something I dun like isn't gonna get me anywhere. If there's something good I learned from WoW, it's that grinding through WORKS. Though i love grinding, I hate raiding sometimes. There are cases when I just didn't feel like raiding, but for the DKP, I ran thru the instance anyway.
Contrary to popular belief, when I dun feel like raiding and turn up for raids, I do play my part. It may not be my 100%, but it's still enough (top 15 dps every raid justifies that. 1st dps for every vael fight i'm in ^^)
The mood swings and attitude problems that Sanctuary kicked me out for were purely due to irritation, either from RL or in-game. eg. running into instance as a substitute only to die before even getting equips optimized or buffed up coz raid ignored my calls for a buff or an update. (explains the few times i mass spam for buffs. coz i hate being ignored, n those times ppl just happened to see me at my worst). Or when a suggested strat gets ignored or put down, only for it to be implemented when others suggest. (razorgore rogues to corners grouping. bwl trash mobs techs 1st vs locks 1st. vael fight, but finally got my points thru in a msn conversation, after which we downed vael. still needs ironing out of course, but i was never there to see perfection.) and of course, when i perform below par, you'll sometimes see me extremely down. (those times i die so fast for rag fight. you normally see me being the 1st to leave MC after loot distribution. I hate it when I suck.) but these being beside the point, and i digress.
I gotta grind through the next few days of tests, and hopefully, even if i fall way below par, i hope, I still clear the modules.
p.s. I left raid quite a few times, but it's never in anger. most of the time i left, there was someone outside waiting to replace me. flesh for me for razorgore, which i returned later at 12am server coz i knew ppl like ribena or rasta will be logging, or like that day when i got kicked, zemana was waiting outside, n tho she refused to come in, i knew she wanted in.
ask genx, poi, nakano, n u'll know i won't quit coz i'm wiping. i won't swap blue or green gear, but push on till my main gears go red, b4 i give up. heh. rogues will know, during the vael wipes before our 1st down, i was at max buff for EVERY attempt. i love vael fights, n i know rogues r most valuable to a vael fight dps wise. i prepared extra arcane prot potions for razorgore, so i always have enough to pop to stop mages ae. ae dmg > fire dmg from mages in razorgore phase1. tho mcclane disagree, i still carry them ard, n have a few stacks to spare for Sanctuary rogues still if they ever need.
p.p.s. sorry for bitchin so much of wow. it may last for bout a wk, but i hope it'll stop soon. i hate hearing myself bitch on n on bout a fucking game haha, but i think i'm addicted, n have grown too attached to many things in-game which i've now lost. so many things i've kept quiet but to afew for too long. it's time i said things out. it's insulting to be implied as a quitter, especially by new hardcore raiders who think they're know-it-alls. or ppl who imply i'm ACTING like a nice guy. or ppl who imply i don't think for the guild, or worse, who say i don't spend time thinking before i flame. i've never flamed, n i spend more time on a post than anyone i bet. have u tried typing a post that yur log-in times out? TWICE?? 6hours for 1 post..
the one that hurt me the most was probably the implications that i don't think for guild. my actions may seem.. irrational, but it's for the guild. if i made a mistake, or m not in a right frame of mind to continue, with a replacement outside, izzet better for me to continue? or let someone else who wanna play, or is in a better state of mind than i m to continue? somethings i dun need to say it out. i'm no officer, y should i say "oh i think he'll do better than i m now in raid, so i'm leaving"? besides, i always have something else to do. if i don't think for guild, y would i log on to sub in raids at 12am server time... n endure wipe after wipe at chrommagus? or firemaw.. or whichever boss it might be. it hurts.. if ppl ever think i never thought of guild.
in some ways, i'm glad to be over with Sanctuary, coz if they don't respect the effort/thoughts I put in for the guild, then there is no reason I should give them my virtual "blood and sweat".
I've gquit back then in Kopiclan n Kopi for lesser reason, but ever since i started trying to help w guild progression, i've never /gquit on a whim. even under straining times at yga, or sanct, i didn't gquit. i understand y i need to be gkick (coz i suck in both skill and attitude, or so deemed by most ppl in guild), but i dun understand the lack of respect n understanding that preluded these.
'nuff said. BonusPack is full. I'm bursting with anger, hurt, n tears. No I don't feel betrayed, coz I never was. I just feel lost.. at least in-game.
this IS a long post, and probably my most worthless one. But for the sake of my WoW frenz, this post is for you. For those of you who thought you knew. This is my side of the story. To believe it or not, is up to you. There's probably some more things I could say, but this should fill you up to date bout the life of Silentstalkr. KopiClan -> Kopi -> YGA -> Sanctuary -> Halfway House.
cheers, n may your WoW life be much more fun than it was for me.
It's amazing how much weightage i put into the friendships I've formed in the past few months in-game. It's a shocking wake-up call to me. I should play less WoW wahaha >.<
Easier said than done though. I should, however, take another look at my system of friendship. I give every friend, old or new, my 100%, and sometimes, it drains me out.
Worse still, I start getting impatient with old/familiar friends, and end up chasing some away. Most new acquaintances don't see it, but I have a very bad temper, and unfortunately, I seem to be having more trouble keeping it under the lid.
I guess as I hit "adulthood", I care less for face, and "just give". My devil-may-cry heck care attitude that I've adopted may be doing me more harm than good though.. but being a good guy just don't cut it anymore. I remember being told "you can't please everyone" and how wise were those words.
Newayz, this is an update post, so here goes.
WoW update 1: Silentstalkr has formed Halfway House. A casual guild to help one another, gear up n train potential raiders, n help them look for a raiding guild/home. Or they could stay and be a casual, and enjoy the camaradrie shared among fellow members of Halfway House. To all Sanctuary members, I'm sorry I'm not coming back, at least not in the near future, cause of the following reasons.
1) my return will harm the guild more than help.
2) I've promised the officers I won't come back.
3) Hardcore raiding was never my intent in this game.
WoW update 2: Borntokill on Aman'thul has joined CK in his family guild Band of Brothers. I intend to play occasionally with them, and have found their pace of levelling and gaming to be relaxing and fun. Borntokill shall be a dagger rogue, and I shall relish the chance to play a rogue again.. from a whole new perspective. (i've never played dagger end-game. been sword since pre-20s)
On that note, Madame is still GM of Reunion, but Reunion is currently rather defunct. I'll log on at least once a week, but I doubt I'll be lvling Madame much. I'm glad to see notably Deadstalk, Etrigan, Kylnn, and Luella's Alt showing some activity. However, I suspect only Etrigan and Deadstalk are really playing haha.
WoW update 3: An offer too good to refuse has knocked on my door. Been bugged by mark to reroll a rogue back on Shadowsong and raid with him on Shadowsong. Aside from being kicked out of Sanctuary, yesterday saddening news of a split of the cores of SoG has sent shockwaves round the raiding community of Shadowsong. This only further pushed my decision to reroll a NE rogue on Shadowsong. Vvred is now a lvl7 rogue on Shadowsong. Feel free to find me there. I should be there almost as often as I am on Silentstalkr.
WoW update 4: My characters on Khaz'goroth have now officially entered semi-retirement. I've not given up on them, but I don't intend to pursue further "glory" with them. My sole intent of logging onto Khaz will be to renew old ties. Nothing more. With more WoW frenz turning RL frenz, the lines between virtual and reality are thinning. And with many of the "converted-RL frenz" retiring/semi-retiring from WoW, it's time Silentstalkr hung up his blades too.
Bowling is expensive, but still enjoyable. However, the joy I derive from the pursuit of perfection in bowling seems to have lost its appeal as compared with that I get from 9ball pool. Though I doubt I'll quit bowling, I might quit the NUS bowling team. Permanently. It's been fun, but it's not something I'd like to hang around for.
I hope to save up enough gold... I mean.. money, to purchase a break cue. Using darryl's break cue strengthened my resolve to get one. I intend to master my break for 9ball, and getting myself a break cue will be my 1st step. Already I pride myself in being able to deliver a relatively good break.... On tables of better quality than those found at Kpool heh.
School sucks. But whining that I'm doing something I dun like isn't gonna get me anywhere. If there's something good I learned from WoW, it's that grinding through WORKS. Though i love grinding, I hate raiding sometimes. There are cases when I just didn't feel like raiding, but for the DKP, I ran thru the instance anyway.
Contrary to popular belief, when I dun feel like raiding and turn up for raids, I do play my part. It may not be my 100%, but it's still enough (top 15 dps every raid justifies that. 1st dps for every vael fight i'm in ^^)
The mood swings and attitude problems that Sanctuary kicked me out for were purely due to irritation, either from RL or in-game. eg. running into instance as a substitute only to die before even getting equips optimized or buffed up coz raid ignored my calls for a buff or an update. (explains the few times i mass spam for buffs. coz i hate being ignored, n those times ppl just happened to see me at my worst). Or when a suggested strat gets ignored or put down, only for it to be implemented when others suggest. (razorgore rogues to corners grouping. bwl trash mobs techs 1st vs locks 1st. vael fight, but finally got my points thru in a msn conversation, after which we downed vael. still needs ironing out of course, but i was never there to see perfection.) and of course, when i perform below par, you'll sometimes see me extremely down. (those times i die so fast for rag fight. you normally see me being the 1st to leave MC after loot distribution. I hate it when I suck.) but these being beside the point, and i digress.
I gotta grind through the next few days of tests, and hopefully, even if i fall way below par, i hope, I still clear the modules.
p.s. I left raid quite a few times, but it's never in anger. most of the time i left, there was someone outside waiting to replace me. flesh for me for razorgore, which i returned later at 12am server coz i knew ppl like ribena or rasta will be logging, or like that day when i got kicked, zemana was waiting outside, n tho she refused to come in, i knew she wanted in.
ask genx, poi, nakano, n u'll know i won't quit coz i'm wiping. i won't swap blue or green gear, but push on till my main gears go red, b4 i give up. heh. rogues will know, during the vael wipes before our 1st down, i was at max buff for EVERY attempt. i love vael fights, n i know rogues r most valuable to a vael fight dps wise. i prepared extra arcane prot potions for razorgore, so i always have enough to pop to stop mages ae. ae dmg > fire dmg from mages in razorgore phase1. tho mcclane disagree, i still carry them ard, n have a few stacks to spare for Sanctuary rogues still if they ever need.
p.p.s. sorry for bitchin so much of wow. it may last for bout a wk, but i hope it'll stop soon. i hate hearing myself bitch on n on bout a fucking game haha, but i think i'm addicted, n have grown too attached to many things in-game which i've now lost. so many things i've kept quiet but to afew for too long. it's time i said things out. it's insulting to be implied as a quitter, especially by new hardcore raiders who think they're know-it-alls. or ppl who imply i'm ACTING like a nice guy. or ppl who imply i don't think for the guild, or worse, who say i don't spend time thinking before i flame. i've never flamed, n i spend more time on a post than anyone i bet. have u tried typing a post that yur log-in times out? TWICE?? 6hours for 1 post..
the one that hurt me the most was probably the implications that i don't think for guild. my actions may seem.. irrational, but it's for the guild. if i made a mistake, or m not in a right frame of mind to continue, with a replacement outside, izzet better for me to continue? or let someone else who wanna play, or is in a better state of mind than i m to continue? somethings i dun need to say it out. i'm no officer, y should i say "oh i think he'll do better than i m now in raid, so i'm leaving"? besides, i always have something else to do. if i don't think for guild, y would i log on to sub in raids at 12am server time... n endure wipe after wipe at chrommagus? or firemaw.. or whichever boss it might be. it hurts.. if ppl ever think i never thought of guild.
in some ways, i'm glad to be over with Sanctuary, coz if they don't respect the effort/thoughts I put in for the guild, then there is no reason I should give them my virtual "blood and sweat".
I've gquit back then in Kopiclan n Kopi for lesser reason, but ever since i started trying to help w guild progression, i've never /gquit on a whim. even under straining times at yga, or sanct, i didn't gquit. i understand y i need to be gkick (coz i suck in both skill and attitude, or so deemed by most ppl in guild), but i dun understand the lack of respect n understanding that preluded these.
'nuff said. BonusPack is full. I'm bursting with anger, hurt, n tears. No I don't feel betrayed, coz I never was. I just feel lost.. at least in-game.
this IS a long post, and probably my most worthless one. But for the sake of my WoW frenz, this post is for you. For those of you who thought you knew. This is my side of the story. To believe it or not, is up to you. There's probably some more things I could say, but this should fill you up to date bout the life of Silentstalkr. KopiClan -> Kopi -> YGA -> Sanctuary -> Halfway House.
cheers, n may your WoW life be much more fun than it was for me.
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