"You're only as young as the people you surround yourself with.."

I was told, that the hospital is an unhealthy place not coz it's a congregation of sick ppl, but more coz it's a congregation of the sick, weak, aged, n dying ppl.
n in the company of these sort of personalities, yur energy gets sucked n drained, n u feel older, duller, more... life-less?
whereas in the company of youth, u tend to be more energetic, lively, jubilant.

I dunno how true that is; i'm quite young, but contrary to popular belief, i'm quite a life-less person. "dead" would be an apt description. i can probably suck life outta u... FEAR ME.
how not to? reality is a silent killer. it's everywhere and u can't escape it. u can't run, u can't hide, n slowly but surely, reality champions over idealism. sooner or later, ppl lower their expectations, fall short or lose their dreams, n then they join the club of reality zombies, struggling thru each day, awaiting the next..

R YOU like that? R YOU one of them ZOMBIES?? think about it. if u're worrying about where yur next meal is coming from, u probably r. if u're worrying bout what u'll do after u grad, u probably r. if u're worrying if what u do is enough for the lifestyle u desire, u probably r. if u dress in dull colored depressing clothes that r unrealistic coz sg weather is SUPER HOT.. that's UNREALISTIC, so u're probably not. u're juz a psycho. then u can join my club haha =p

back to topic, forget bout the hospital. one place that sends anyone crashing back to earth: a wake. a funeral. a ceremony to commemorate the passing of a fellow human. a sending off. whatever u wanna call it, it's reality, n it's happening all around us. two wakes, two days in a row. that's enough to sober ANYONE if u're high on life. but hey.. it's a good kick in the ass if u're still dreaming yur life away =p sooo... lets see... wasn't it a mth back? that my uncle passed away? well... sobering indeed. life's short. ouch.

i'm stupid, i'm crazy, i'm blind, i'm a fool, i'm irrational, i can't think. some know the reason y. but i dun care if u do or don't. i want to fix it. or get over it. or do something about it. forget it. i wanna study. correction. i NEED to study.

aik. thank u amroui. thank u blog.
reality check done. i'll get back to studying.

p.s. condolences to those who've had a close one passed on.
it's the least i have to offer.